Discover Yourself and Live With It (Part 2)


My graduation was on the year 1999. It was a bad year, really. At the peak of the recession after the financial crisis in 1997. Job vacancies were getting less and less. Not much job available especially you wished to get a technical / support job. I still need to survive, as such, I landed myself in selling, oh, yes! I'm a salesman.

Working is definitely very different from studying (Guess many people agree with me). You must know to handle your supervisor, your peers etc etc etc.

Politics! Politics! Politics!

I didn't enjoy my work at all. I hated my job. I hated my supervisors. I hated my life! Once again, I was crashed into disaster again. Nothing seems to be right. I failed in my love. I kept on falling in love with the wrong people (all straight guys). And I was still in the closet, not willing to open up myself. To my friends, I am damn straight guy.

Because of my failures in career and love at that time, I became a very defensive person. I just don't listen to others.

I am always correct, and you're wrong.

I am doing a favour for you, and you need to return back to me.

I am falling in love with you, no matter what you need to love me.

I was wrong. I was indeed wrong. I was definitely wrong.

Again, my heart whispered to me once again. I needed to change. I couldn't stay in such an environment that would destroy me.With full of confidence, I began to write numerous resume for other job opportunities. I had to move out from Penang.

I wanted to change! I needed to change! AND I MUST CHANGE!

Probably it's my luck, I managed to find a job in KL and it had changed my life forever ...


To be continued....