DO I LOOK GAY?
Yesterday, one of my female colleagues suddenly asked me "Are you dating Mr X?" I was totally shocked. For such a long time, I appeared to be so straight in front of all my straight friends. Even some of my gay friends kept on asking me if I was really gay.
Well, I do admit that I can't see myself clearly, the way I behave or act. Mostly I depend on peoples' (around me) comments whether I appeared to be straight or gay.
I do not feel "very proud" to be gay, but I just want to be who I am. I always feel sexuality is very personal, and should not incorporate ego into it. When someone told me "I am straight/gay/bi", in my heart I'll say "So what?"
In corporate world, though, I can't reveal my sexuality due to working environment and career advancement. That's why I am practically still in a closet in workplace and of course, to my family members.
If I work in industries such as fitness, media, advertising, fashion etc, I really do not mind to reveal myself. But what to do, sometimes we need to be hiding ourselves in order to earn a living. Sigh!
Anyway, for those who know me and meet me in person before, can you "smell" I am gay? Ha ha ha
posted by Bryan @ 8:14 AM
5 Comments:
Of course can smell. If not noone would be giving you hints/signals in the changing room lar!
My gay-dar sucks so I doubt I'd know even if you swished into the room with a feather boa around your neck. :P
hmmm... at times for one reason or another, i think most ppl can sense if a person is gay or not... however, for ppl who hasn't been exposed or even been in contact with a gay person, they can be soooo innocent... the other day i was out with my old friend from uni (who happens to be very very innocent) and saw this "sister" who is sooooo sotong-like. I commented something like - even if he's gay he doesn't need to practically announce it to the world.... this friend of mine was like - "you sure he's gay??? how sure are you?"... DUH!!!!
Being gay in corporate world is a tough thing in Malaysia. Fortunately for me, i can be gay and kinda successful even with the higher management knows for a fact that i am gay. I took a risk by being frank and luckily things turn out no different.... I agree that one's preference should not be anyone's business other than yours but on the other hand there's no point hiding and being scared that people will find out or know that you are one.
With all that said... good luck to you! :)
I think the safe choice is to keep it a secret in your workplace...not worth risking ur job...its still Malaysia..
I am very good in this area.. haha. :) Even I found out my colleauge are PLU.
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