ABOUT LOVE

This afternoon, I met up with a friend at Curve for a short lunch.

T: How's ur holiday in Hanoi?
Me: It was good. I stayed cheap, eat cheap. That's how I can sense the locals' life there
T: Why u so stingy? Go la to nice cafe, stay in better hotels
Me: Well, different ppl got different preferences
T: Any plans with ur bf for holiday?
Me: I'll visit him next month. Not much plans as at now
T: How maintain such relationship? U see... I have been with my bf for many years.
Me: So what? Love should not be measured by years.
T: Well, we are so compatible. We will be going to Australia end this month, HK next month and Japan next year.
Me: Then, good on you

At first I really felt disturbed with his remarks. Well, I do admit I am jealous and envy. People have honeymoons with their lovers so many times and I hardly even see my bf. Even when I am in Bangkok visiting him, he may not be around because of his work.

When I drove back to office, I think for a moment. But I could sensed that it would be very wrong for me to feel jealous after all. True, I don't meet my bf quite often. For most people, our relationship is just merely friendship. But deep in my heart, I never ever think of that.

Then I called him up about 6pm. He was having a party in a university function. Immediately I felt a sense of happiness for him as he was enjoying himself there.

It's true, i didn't meet him often. It's true, he placed his priority to his family and career. But as long as he is happy with his life right now, should i be angry? Or rather when I see him happy, I will be happy too?

From that moment onwards, I truly realised once again that true love doesn't mean I must attach to him.

Most people thought in search for happiness, we do it externally, eg shopping, holidays etc. But the reality is it's only temporary. If our internal is not peaceful and always practice self grasping, how can our happiness last?